The Swamp of Sadness from "The Neverending Story."

The Neverending War

[CW: discussion of clinical Depression, suicide, and mental health] [Spoilers for the 1984 film The Neverending Story.] I’ve been fighting a war a long as I can remember, and I am tired. This war isn’t fought with guns or bombs or missiles, but my life is on the line nonetheless. I don’t want to die, but there’s voice in my mind telling me I should, insisting that … Continue reading The Neverending War

Thinking selfie

“What’s the point of you anyway?”

“What’s the point of you anyway?” It’s a question I ask myself a lot. Often it’s the concluding thought in a downward spiral of self-deprecation, generally kicked off because I made a simple mistake or said something embarrassing. I can be rather hard on myself. It’s not as though I lack the skill set necessary to be kind and caring and considerate–I can treat other … Continue reading “What’s the point of you anyway?”

On Self-Hate

CW: Discussion of depression, suicide, and mental health As a person who’s struggled with clinical Depression as long as she’s had memories, the concepts of “loving yourself” and “self-care” have always made me raise an eyebrow. Sure, I can get on board with those concepts in theory, but in practice? Now you’re pushing it. I stopped trying to talk about this with friends a long … Continue reading On Self-Hate