Hands up, pushing away. Photo by M.T ElGassier on Unsplash

I worry, therefore I am

I’ve had a hard time writing this past week, probably in part because I’ve had a hard time thinking lately. Writing requires at least some organization of thought: a trait I have been completely lacking recently. I’ve been reluctant to talk about it, but I do believe part of how we connect with one another is through being vulnerable and transparent, so that’s my goal. … Continue reading I worry, therefore I am

Choose You

CW: discussion of childhood trauma, mention of assault The most traumatic part of my assault was actually a decision I made directly afterwards. I didn’t even realize I was making a decision, and at such a tender age I should’ve never been in a position to have had to make said decision. I had finally found my mother, the mission I’d originally been on when … Continue reading Choose You

On Self-Hate

CW: Discussion of depression, suicide, and mental health As a person who’s struggled with clinical Depression as long as she’s had memories, the concepts of “loving yourself” and “self-care” have always made me raise an eyebrow. Sure, I can get on board with those concepts in theory, but in practice? Now you’re pushing it. I stopped trying to talk about this with friends a long … Continue reading On Self-Hate