Me, waiting for a train that will never come. Circa 2012.

Don’t Hate Me Because I Hate Me

Confidence is sexy. Don’t ask me where I learned that, it’s just one of those things “everyone knows.” Surely you’ve learned this too, either in conversation or directly. As a person who’s never had much self-confidence to speak of, I can’t tally the number of times well-meaning friends have instructed me to simply “Be confident!” as though that is actually helpful life advice. They act … Continue reading Don’t Hate Me Because I Hate Me

Apparently, I wasApparently, I was really into capes as a kid. Circa 1990.

Common Reaction

I wish I could say I’ve handled the autistic realization with nothing but gracefully acceptance, but that’s not the case. It’s been a bit of a process, to be honest, somewhat like grieving. I guess I’m grieving any chance of ever truly being normal but… didn’t I already know I was “different”? My whole life, haven’t I known? But that’s so me, to hold out … Continue reading Common Reaction

Drag Queen of England Tea Party

Invited

When I was in 6th grade, a classmate was having a big birthday bash to which it seemed everyone was invited. We’ll call her Kayla. It was still summer vacation and I ran into my best friend at the beach. She asked me if I was going to Kayla’s birthday party and I told her I hadn’t received an invitation. “Oh you’re invited!” my friend … Continue reading Invited

Me with my parents, circa 1990.

File Under “Odd”

It was more than 20 years ago, but I still remember that day clearly. I was in first grade. We were standing in the lunch line when I noticed the two boys behind me giggling and pointing. They were giggling and pointing at me, but I didn’t know why. Finally, one of them blurted out, “What are you doing?!” What was I doing? I glanced down and … Continue reading File Under “Odd”

“I’m not a lesbian, but…”

Straight, curious, and heteroflexible friends, It has come to my attention that we need to have a little chat. Last night I was watching an episode of the ever-delightful Hannah Gadsby’s “Renaissance Woman“–a short YouTube series she did featuring her area of expertise, art history. I noticed there were a lot of comments and being both curious and a masochist, I decided to read them. … Continue reading “I’m not a lesbian, but…”